... Are Greatly Exaggerated...
Yeah.. I haven't been around for a few weeks..
I've actually been dealing with a rather severe bout of depression lately. Between stress from the summer, stress from work, stress about other personal things, I just got to the point where I destroyed myself mentally.
I had trades on the Database I needed to get out that slid to the wayside. I had sorting that's been left.. It was bad.. I would go to work and come home and fall asleep.. And stay asleep till morning..
Today started out as every other, but some things turned around a bit..
I know it seems like I've been dealing with anxiety and depression a lot lately, and it's true. I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder and Agoraphobia. I also have some perfectionism in there. I know people have had me say I feel when it comes to trades that I should know what people want before they even ask.. That's unreasonable. I know this.. It doesn't change it..
I do appreciate the members both on TCDB, and the Team Traders forum, and those on Twitter I interact with and trade/purchase from for their understanding. I did finally get stuff out to the people I owed, so that's good.. Sorting... Well, because of the volume of cards I received in this funk... I may have to restart my Expos sheet, or at the very least, verify what I have..
I really appreciate each and every one of you that I talk with and trade with.
All this said, I do have some ideas going forward for the blog. Kind of a tour, but Canadian-focused. It might end up being a couple versions, I don't know..
Speaking of cards...
I got these beauties in the mail a couple days ago from Therion from the Team Traders forum. I believe he's on Twitter as AstrosAtoZ
Nice to see a blog post and to read that you're feeling a bit better. Nice cards, too! Hope you're able to tackle the influx of new cards in a way that isn't overwhelming.
ReplyDeleteWell, I just have to take it bit by bit.. If I do decide to start from the beginning again, it's not too horrible, since I can also move things in the boxes..
DeleteSorry to hear what's been going on with you Mike. I know all to well what it's like, it's not a good feeling. I Wish I could help you but I have not been able to figure out my own head either.
ReplyDeleteIt really sucks that so many of us have to deal with these kinds of problems on a daily basis. It's always difficult trying to think of something positive to say, even if it's being said by someone with similar issues. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always send me a DM via Twitter (@pennysleeves), I don't know if I would of any help or not, but you'd at least be talking to someone who's probably experienced many of the same problems.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate that.. Thank you..
DeleteI found an online resource as well.. Called Big White Wall. I'm seriously thinking of editing this post to include the website.
Glad to see a post, and hope you do well, take it bit by bit my friend!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your stress and anxiety. Glad things are taking a turn for the better though.
ReplyDeleteDepression and anxiety suck, and they take a lot of energy to deal with every day. I'm glad you were able to get a post banged out. Even little wins are still wins.
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